One thing these songs didn't do was explain on how to lock in that love once you've found it. I guess there's no real equation for that, I mean common we all have to mess up. Music gave me a good outline of what love should feel like. I remember listening to New Edition, Bobby Brown, BBD, Guy, etc... and just wanting that special lady.
The Bell Biv DeVoe tape was white with black letters. I remember rewinding this song over and over thinking of love and heartbreak. My walkman had to have had over 100,000 miles on it after this tape came out.
Prior to college life there were two females who jolted me into Mr. Lover boy (using my late night radio DJ voice). The first female was sort of like a tomboy. She wore shorts and bulky tennis shoes. I remember her having the big Grant Hill Fila while running up her grandma's drive way. She was tall for a girl and she loved to laugh. I fell for her quick. During that period in time she really didn't feel me like I felt her. We eventually sort of grew up together, somewhat anyways. I'd go over her house to chill with her while her mom was at work during the summer. It's funny cause I know her mom didn't know. I'd enjoy myself cause she had two sisters who were just as crazy as they wanted to be. Her mom liked me and trusted me. I was a safe guy when dealing with her daughter. I thought her mom was so fine. I laugh just looking back at the picture cause I would've loved to have been her mom's age just to date her. Heck I saw her mom a year or so ago and she's still fine! We ended up in and out of touch with each other so it eventually the feelings fizzled away. One day while working at this warehouse I met a female who reminded me of Jada Pinkett's character from the movie Set It Off. She had the same type of braids. She had a smooth bronze tint with a sexy bowlegged walk. She loved to smile and laugh. Her toes were pretty, (I have a foot fetish) and she had a toe ring. Me and her hit it off unlike any other female I'd ever come into contact with. The video below is what she did to me...
Needless to say me and this girl never worked out. I went off to college and she just vanished into the night. I never seen her physically again. Later on in 2006 she found me through myspace. I was more than happy to see her via the net and see that she was still alive.
Some times I forget how many people I've met in this short lived life until they sneak up on me on the internet. Funny how life works though. People you thought you'd never see or hear from again end up back like nothing ever happened. We're still cool to this day. I still haven't seen her since 1997 but we talk like 3 times a year just to make sure all is well.
Speaking of 1997 have you ever dealt with anyone back in your high school years and never really thought anything would come out of it? Then you look up 11 years later and that person is still in your life. That is amazing. So much time has flown by. So many women I've befriended, offended, suspended, and even dismissed yet there is someone I have always been able to count on. She has been a friend when I just needed someone to listen to my complaints, struggles, & jokes. She can even make a mean sammich lol. There are few people that I would do anything for but this friend could have just about anything that I can give. I salute you cause you didn't have to stick around but you did.
It's ironic cause there wasn't but one man in my life growing up. That man was my grandfather. The rest of the people who helped me grow into the Jamille you know now are all women. I love women and I feel like I will always surround myself with them. But for the women who've been in my life through thick and thin this song is for you, and you, and you, and you.... I love you all.
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